Kob,
I finished the last of my assignments today. I have a final on Thursday, and then I'm done. It feels so surreal but I'm also so ready. I'm ready to help people. I'm ready to join my unit. I'm ready to make a difference. After finishing up my assignments, I started crafting. Crafting things that honor your memory so I can bring you into this next phase of my life with me. I'm glad I have them, but I'd rather have you. It doesn't fill the void I have in my heart. It doesn't erase the sadness I feel to be having to go through these milestones without you. Today, it just reminded me of your absence. But I hope on that day, I can feel your presence.
I can't begin to explain how much I miss you, so I won't even try. There aren't enough words in existence. My heart is hurting so badly today. I wish I could call you, so you could talk me down off my anxiety ledge, and tell me everything is going to be okay. Having a pinning was so incredibly important to me because I know how important it would have been to you. You would have wanted to be there so very badly. This life has been so very unfair to us both, but I'm always grateful it gave me you, even if it means I have to be in all this pain now.
Your words still echo in my head. You've still helped push me through. I'd be lost without you.
I love you so much,
Sis
